Foolish girl I am
Thinking I knew everything
When really
I knew nothing at all.

Foolish girl I am
Feeling too much than I should
Then again
How could I have not.

Foolish girl I am
Of ideas and bright, bold colours
I forgot
Life is not a dream.

Foolish girl I am
Desperately clinging to
Remnants of
Her naive, foolish self.

A foolish girl, I am.

***

"Something's lost but something's gained in living every day.

I've looked at life from both sides now,
From win and lose, and still somehow
It's life's illusions I recall.
I really don't know life at all."

- Both Sides Now , Joni Mitchell

Insides tearing apart
I smile a smile
Hiding a conflicted heart
While slowly turning into a basketcase.

I see myself changing
But who will I be?
I don't recognise she
What will become of the Idealist me?
I don't want her to die.

Escape I find in the world of dreams
But sleep does not come easy now
Amidst all the art and beauty surrounding
There is much ugliness to be seen
Begging to be noticed
Refusing to be ignored.

Help me
I am slowly drowning
In the flood of my thoughts.

So tired.
Confused.
Helpless.

And so f*cking pissed off.

I am overwhelmed.

"I wish I had a river that I could skate away on." - River, Joni Mitchell

Formula One started off its 2006 season with a kick-ass race. Schumi got 2nd place, but it was a fantastic race throughout the way between himself and Alonso, the race champion. In the end it was actually just down to ONE SECOND in the pit-stop and Renault managed to outwit Ferrari this time.

Many wheel-to-wheel battles and overtaking maneuvers. Great debut performance for rookie Nico Rosberg for actually getting 2 points to his name on his maiden F1 race!

Did I mention Kimi drove from last position on the grid to a 3rd place on the podium? But Jenson Button didn't make it easy for him - he fought all the way to the chequered flag, but in the end, he had no choice but to settle for 4th place.

What an excellent race to kick start the season. Me is happy.

MSC. RAI. BUT. BAR. *

My favourite men are back in action! Oh, how I've missed them so! I didn't realise how much I've missed them until I watched the Qualifying today. And guess what? Schumi is on Pole Position! Woo hoo! I hope this is a sign of better times ahead for Ferrari. Their abysmal performance last year was not enough to sustain my interest towards the end of the season amidst other distractions in life; for example, End of Semester exams. And now that they've revised the tyre regulations, they would have absolutely no excuse to underperform this season.

Poor Kimi's McLaren suffered from a rear wing and suspension problem so he'll have to start at the back of the grid. Why is it always HIS McLaren? Why not Juan Pablo's? (Yes, I am biased. :P) But that's okay. It'll make a good race for tomorrow 'cos Bahrain is an overtaking track and Kimi has pulled off amazing finishes from the back row before.

I can't wait! Gentlemen, start your engines. Let the 2006 Formula 1 season begin! :D

*These are the initials which appear on the tv screen when they race. MSC: Michael Schumacher, RAI: Kimi Raikkonen, BUT: Jenson Button, BAR: Rubens Barrichello. For more info on Formula 1 racing, click on the F1 links.

Journey To The East

(or There And Back Again)

Went for a much needed and long anticipated holiday with the ex-housemates. It was great. We had so much fun, and so much to eat as well, hehe. Finally set foot on Borneo and went along the coastline, so yeah, I've had quite a taste of Sarawak (with a bit of Labuan and international flava of Brunei thrown in between), resulting in me becoming chubby. Sigh. 'Twas was worth it, though.

Here are several highlights of the trip:

Labuan - The War Memorial. Beautifully maintained by the Australian government, several epitaphs on the tombstone really moved me. And not to forget, Duty Free shopping. Heheh. Heheheh.

Brunei - Sitting on a speedboat without a life-jacket on (the horrors!) around Kampung Air, which literally translates to 'Water Village.' Quite an interesting way to live there. And the Royal Regalia, which is a museum of the Royal Family of Brunei's memorabilia and gifts received from leaders around the world. There was this replica of a mosque made from bits of mirror, given by some country's leader, which we thought would made an ultra cool disco ball, kekeke. Not to forget, playing Bumper Cars in Jerudong Park, a lovely theme park but unfortunately, its glory days were over.

Miri - I rather enjoyed the whole road trip experience to and fro Niah Caves. The whole Niah cave 'exploration' was fun, too, even though I wasn't very keen on it in the beginning. It somehow reminded me of my favourite fantasy books I've read, The Lord of The Rings and The Wheel of Time series, hehe. Sheena's mom's Sarawak Laksa and BBQ chicken wings. Yumm. And my very first Midin/Bilin meal, which made it to the list of 'Vegetables I actually enjoy eating'. Watching Desperate Housewives together, just like back in Vista. ;)

Sibu - Food, food, and more food. The quest for foot reflexology (don't ask). Did I mention food? Crashed a Senior Citizen convention in a restaurant, but hey, the food was great! :P

Kuching - Watching American Idol together, hehe. Sarawak Laksa. Duck mee. Yumm. Getting upclose and personal with Orang Utans ("Ook!"). The Cat Museum was absolutely delightful! (although Ade and 33 would beg to differ. They were cat-napping - pun intended :P - inside the museum instead.) As for Jong's crocodile farm and zoo, well... I still can't get the picture of the very sad and lonely Sun Bear out of my head. The poor creature. :( The Sarawak Cultural Village was a memorable experience, to say the least. ;)

Many thanks to Sheena, Ade and Grace & families for taking us under your roofs and made us feel welcomed as well as bringing us around town/city. Also thanks to Nikki & friend for bringing us around Labuan.

We had a blast. :)