Bothered and Bewildered

When something out of the blue happens, what do you do?

Do you embrace it whole heartedly and throw caution to the wind?

Or do you approach it carefully with a wary eye?

I used to do the former. But it didn't work out the way I hoped it would. It's now the latter.

Have I become so cynical to the point where I just don't feel anymore? Or am I just afraid to feel?

Anyhow, I need more to feel comfortable again. Because I'm tired of history repeating itself... several times.