Monday, August 28, 2006

Saying Goodbye

My favourite scene from 'The O. C.' season 1 would be when Seth Cohen said goodbye to Anna. Seth was this lonely boy in Newport, who had no friends until Ryan and Anna came along. Ryan was the delinquent from Chino whom his lawyer dad decided to adopt. Anna was a new girl from Pittsburgh. Seth and Anna had loads in common and they even got together as a romantic couple. Unfortunately, it didn't last 'cos Seth was actually in love with Summer (which is another story). Anyway, Anna missed Pittsburgh a lot, and she never felt like she belonged in Newport, so she decided to go home.

That episode was quite dramatic (as like all OC episodes are). Anna's decision to leave was quite sudden and she kept Seth in the dark until quite late. She also couldn't bear to say goodbye to him face to face, so she wrote him a letter and got Ryan to pass it to her. The letter got smudged (Ryan fell into the swimming pool... ANOTHER long story) and Seth couldn't really make out what was written at some parts. And so he rushes off to the airport...

He arrives at the airport. Nada Surf's 'If You Leave' starts playing in the background. Seth cranes his neck, frantically searching for Anna among the crowd. She was at the boarding gate already, when suddenly she hears her name being called -- "ANNA!"

Seth pleaded for her not to go. But she said she had to leave, she missed Pittsburgh too much. Seth was brokenhearted. Anna was one of the few people who really knew him. What am I gonna do without you, he asked. And a tearful Anna told him what she always had when she first got to know him:

"Confidence, Cohen."

And then she left.

I'll be leaving very soon. And much as I am excited about this new chapter of my life, I am also experiencing other emotions.

I feel sad that I had to leave my home, a place filled with so much memories. It's funny how I used to harbour this particular dream of studying in the UK in my bedroom for so long, and now it is actually coming true. I am also going to miss watching a precious little girl grow up as well. Sigh.

And being a typical Malaysian and my love affair with Malaysian food, I am definitely going to miss my mother's cooking, of course!, Nasi Lemak Ayam Goreng (with extra sambal), Nasi Kandar Pelita, claypot chicken rice, Penang Char Kuey Teow (spicy), Roti Pisang with Chicken Curry, Sambal Prawn with Petai, Kangkung Belacan, Honey Sotong, and other yummy gastronomical delights.

Oh well. At least there is Nandos in the UK.

I am also feeling a bit of irrational fear. Fear that I would not succeed. Fear that I'll graduate as a rubbish doctor. I know, it's irrational. Haha! :P But it's there.

Yet, despite all these feelings, I know it is my time to go and experience my life the way I've always wanted to. To see the world, but most importantly to find out who I really am. Because this isn't just a medical education; it is also a journey of self-discovery.

And so I shall cast my trepidation aside, and tell myself, "Confidence, YK."

See you in a bit. ;)

At 6:03 AM, Blogger Xiao_zhai said...

All the best, girl.

At 9:25 AM, Anonymous shuj said...

YK, i am so gonna miss the times we play futsal together! all the best in southampton! take care...

At 3:47 PM, Blogger Zennie said...

hey girl! how issit over there.. despite all the emotional turmoils, you boarded the plane! YAY! =p

yes, see you in a bit..


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