Thursday, April 19, 2007

And Suddenly The Past Caught Me Unawares

It could be the Psychiatric attachment. Or it could be just waiting for the right time to resurface. Before I knew it, I was experiencing some angst related to the past, lying dormant all this while, keeping a low profile of its existence. It was never dealt with in the past because I didn't see it there. I couldn't. Or maybe I just wouldn't.

So much anger and resentment. And yet so much guilt as well. Because I knew that what happened in the past could not be changed, that no one is to be blamed. That we - I - was coping the way I knew best then. That should just accept it as a part of life, and learn. And not repeat the same mistakes.

I want to heal and move on. But judging from past experience, I know it's gonna take a while.

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