Melancholia

It's funny and surreal how music could transport one back in time, back into the memories. I was listening to a song just now in my room in England, and I remembered how I used to look outside my window in Vista, overlooking the basketball court and Bukit Komanwel, taking a break from studying,and wondering how my life will be in the UK.

Now that I'm already here, it's funny how I still wonder how my life will be in the UK. I'm here but not quite. I should be living in the here and now. I want to. Yet, something is still missing.

I could recall 2005 so vividly. It's effortless. But to just remember the last month is difficult.

Am I experiencing what is known as 'melancholy'?

I do not want to live an existential life!!! Perhaps my next posting (Psychiatry) will help me sort myself out. :p

Anyway, spring is in the air! It's hard to stay depressed when flowers are blooming everywhere, the sun is brightly shining, and not sweat like a pig! Life IS beautiful...:)